I confess...I haven't been praying lately.

 04/01/2019 

Authentic Power “Contribute what you can in life, that’s Love.” 

Dear Life, for some reason I am always unsure about you. Whatever the world has going on is so totally different from what I can feel in my heart. No matter how difficult some situations are; God is always near and I can feel that spirit. I am writing today because it’s been awhile and I needed this moment. Right now I am in a space of favor. How do I know…because it seems no matter how irrational I can be or how undisciplined I am about sticking to a certain regime, God steps in and covers me. At 24 I am aware of how important peace is to me. My truth is genuine compassion for others. I can see the good in others that they can’t see in themselves. This entry is not about me, but for someone who may someday read this. My hope is that people find their purpose and dedicate their lives to becoming their absolute best. I’m learning to love that about myself as well. Though I’ve missed a couple church Sundays and way too many nights without reading my Bible…I feel as though I’ve learned  something new about myself everyday. I’ve learned a little bit about what truly matters to me. I don’t have a daily prayer yet, and I need one. If I did have one right now, here’s what it would sound like. 

Dear God, here I am - Ready to accept your word and your presence. 

Help me to fulfill my life’s purpose while helping others see you through me. God be with me when I am uncertain and strengthen my mind to align with your will and your word. Open my heart and fill it with Godly emotions, character, and power. God I pray for and over the generations I will someday give birth to. May they know you through my worship, praise, and daily relationship in and with you. God keep my heart humble and my head bowed. I pray that I do not become aggressive or intimidated by “the wait” - but help me to be consistent and patient. God may you create space in your universe for me to have life more abundantly. May my spirit be strong and wise. God give me hands that heal and words that give birth to a life that is well. Help me to love like you and help me forgive those that will and have hurt me. May your hand and spirit cover me everyday, Amen. 

I choose to examine what I’ve experienced, the choices I’ve made, and the promises I’ve made to myself, and devote myself to becoming the person I dream about. The truth is, nobody knows what they’re doing and nobody knows what “tomorrow” will bring, so we have to give everyday our complete best, gain a piece of knowledge about something, and never forget the sacrifices someone else has made on our behalf. May I never forget what I’ve learned or seen. For my past is who I am and my future is what I claim it will be. 

Love Malani